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February 27, 2006
PROM pix
6:46 PM  PROMone of the pictures ko sa prom.. sa bahay yan ng tita ko..next time nalang ung iba ang tagal kasi mag load eh.. anyways.. Have a nice day EVERYONE.. tah-tah!!!!!! February 20, 2006
worst PROM!!!
6:36 PM omg!!! our prom was last saturday (feb 18, 06) it was not any fun.. i was so bored, sleepy, annoyed, bored, snob, rude, intimidated, bored, paranoid, oh and did i mention bored? yep! it was probably the most boring of all the schools prom. Many people say that missing prom would make you loose one half of your life, i say, LIE! what i think is the whole thing is such a big cliche which you have to spend money on for no reason at all. here goes the day of the so-called memorable night..... our prom started 6 o'clock, so 4 hours before the prom which was around half past two i headed to the salon to do my hair and make up. i spent 2 hours in there hoping to get a beautiful look. so at around 4:30pm i headed to the house of the friend of my mom for a photoshot. we ended around 5:30pm. after then, we go straight to the venue. When i got down from the car i was so so so hoping to get everyones attention and surprisingly i did. Later one friend of mine came and told me that many people especially 4th years are looking beacuse i actuially have a twin of the gown design.. OMG! i was so paranoid. help me god im starting to drift. Then when i saw the girl i noticed that the gown she was using was i actually the gown i copied my design on, but i was all blocked that a kong huanian will be using that certain gown because its only rented. 4th year girls kept on looking at me and i was blanked! i dont know what to do. Anyhoo, after that I headed inside the hall to find my friends and then the ceremony began. The evening was ratherly formal and gigantic, lots of handsome gentlemens and beautiful ladies. I didint mind eyes looking at me I just mind my own business. Then the rest of the night followed, it was soooo BORING! well, i guess thats all. Oh and by the way, the girl i had a same gown on won the Prom Princess title. She dont deserve it, not because i had the same gown on with her but beacuse many thinks so. Especially me!
i can smile?
6:31 PM Real happiness the kind that leaves you feeling ridiculously giddy and radiant. Isnt just about those occasional big-ticket bliss experiences, like falling head over heels in love. It is also about the simpler moments of joy in life, the ones that come around a helluva lot more often. (kindly ponder..) Yes, Im feeling much better now. Im insane once again. lol I passed by a designer shop yesterday and I saw an uber elegant wedding dress. Gosh.. It got me thinking. I wanna get married. Haha (yes, I am insane..lol) Love is truly in the air. I dont need a significant other to enjoy valentines day. I deserve more, right? Its not like there are no other guys, so why should i settle? I opt for a sensationally single status.Haha! (take that *YOU!!!) Thanks for the lovely gifts. Happy Valentines day everyone! I have the strongest, strongest, strongest urge to blog, but i also have absolutely nothing to blog about anymore. February 13, 2006
alone!
6:20 PM Just when i though everything will turn out great this time. I was wrong. Hell wrong. I am destined to be alone and miserable. To stare idly at nothingness; to fantasize about the impossible;to wish for things that can never be acheived; to hope for a love that can never be given To sit like a statue in the midst of darkness; to cry and yet not shed a single tear. To be devoid of emotion; or at least be adept at hiding pain and frustration; to always seem to move on and yet in truth dwell in the past; to forgive but never forget. To be ruled by fear, rejection and yet foolishly try and try again to establish a connection; to fail at it; to try again and again; and to disappoint myself each time. To want to loved and be loved in return, and find only emptiness and loneliness. To have people think Im crazy; and yet know that they just dont understand; to suffer the indignation of having to notice every bit of ignorance, stupidity, and narrow-mindedness the world possesses and hate it; all the while grappling with the reality that Im not so perfect myself. To be fated to be loved only misery, melancholy, melodrama, and self pity; to love a person who does not exist; to put all my hopes, dreams, ambitions and aspirations on a person whos probably going to let me down someday. To bare out my soul this way because there isnt any other means by which I can express myself; to fill dozens of notebooks with unspoken thoughts; and to read them again and again from time to time just to remind myself how pathetic I am. To be a dreamer realist at the same time; to ask myself questions I know the answers to; to speak to myself for lack of another person to talk to. To devour romantic movies and relish each kiss, each dance, each song, each and every single piece of dialogue as if it were my own; and to know the whole time that such things will never happen in my life. To believe in forever and everlasting love., and yet be given the complete opposite every time I do fall in love. To tell anyone who bothers to listen that i see myself someday married to him; and then lise him; to say it again about another person; and lose him the same way. To fall at almost everything I try to do; to be ridiculed at every decision I make; to have people I know make stupid jokes and hurtful comments behind my back. To always be second best or less; to watch my dreams fade away into nothing; to always have to suck it all up and say SH** happens. To realize that all of this is my fault ; that I make myself miserable; that I choose to wallow in self pity and melodrama; and know that I can do absolutely nothing about it, since it seems that its the only thing I can do well. Yes, I am truly destined to be ALONE and MISERABLE. February 11, 2006
parents dont understand!
4:12 PM Hey y'all bloggers.. its ME again.. Have you ever tried of feeling a deep thought about how you can be able to turn back the day you were born and come out from a different kind of family? if we ever could chose who our parents would be? can you tell me why in the world did they chose mine for me??? Ive had enough of this, Im getting tired of my parents ragging on me all the time... I felt more worse than a prisoner, a stepford daughter out of a mail order magazine, I cant even buy the things which i considered cool coz they wont but it for me, instead they buy things i dont like, I have to save P1000 so that theyll but me an mp3 player, i hate that! I know thats is I think to teach me resposibilities but I guess there are more other ways to teach me responsibilities other than that, another thing, they wont even let me dress up in cool clothes and fashion coz Im not old enough, Hello?! Im 15, when will I be old enough to dress up in cool clothes?! when Im 30??? Parents just dont understand!!! February 10, 2006
election day
2:32 PM hai!!! nandito po ako sa computer lab namin at bago lang din ako nakatapos sa pag vote... Two choices for president Al, the serious and determined and another is Alex, the lively and funny... Ang vote ko? Of course yung Serious, paano uunlad and Kong Hua kung puro saya lang? Dapat may time for everything diba?... Mgaling din naman si Al sa ex-curricular activities eh, marami xang brillant ideas, and hes also good in academics, kaya bet ko talaga xa ang mananalo... On the other hand, si Alex naman, I think magaling lang xa sa mga bagay na nakakapagpasaya... Oo nga! gusto ng lahat ng kabataan ngaun na sumaya, but i think may time sa ganun at may time din sa pagseseryoso... Hay! sa gaun ay magpapatuloy muna ako sa ireresearch ko, kaya ako nakapagopen sa computer lab ng internet ay dahil sa pagresearch ng Spyware.... saan ko kaya makikita un??? Ay, sa Google... bakit ba ngaun ko palang un naicip? Napaka tagalog ng post ko ngaun noh??? Feel ko lang!!! February 05, 2006
wickedly sweet
9:45 PM LSS: narda by kamikazee I slept around 5:30am. Nope, I wasnt surfing the net. I was burning the phone lines! I talked to Michael from 12am to 5am. We practically talked about all the inane and mundane things in the world yet it was so much fun. I was feeling a bit disconsolated last night talking to Him made me forget all my qualms. Later that evening, We had a sort of reunion with my clanmates. I was with my cousins all through the night. I realized that I was a bit ALOOF. I was unfriendly, snobbish and snooty. While they were singing and having fun I was texting. Its not that I dont like their company its the way I want it. More than half of my classmates has their significant other. Whenever they talk about their love life Im always muted and unresponsive. On plenty occasions people kept asking me why am i still unattached. And I too, do not know why. Gawd. Why am I seem to be longing for something or someone? Is it because Vday is near? I wish I could just be as happy as I have always been, though, i know its hard to reflex and stretch muscles when its torned. Its hard to look around when you cant move your neck; its hard to smile when your muscles tend to frown. Thats quite painful, i believe. but well see, maybe tomorrow ill be fine. maybe.
sinong di mababaliw sa ulan?
9:35 PM currently listening to narda by kamikazee I woke up on a day when the warmth of the sunlight touched me gently. I had the most extravagant dream of a blissful and exhilarating life. I found myself at the middle of an extra-cozy bed and half a dozen pillows around me. Everything seemed to be so perfect. But as the clock ticks, unexpected events came down. I thought it had found my way again. But it did not. It was, as a matter of fact, heading towards the opposite track. It started to rain. On the other hand, i dont want a boyfriend. Hmmm.. Maybe i should get a puppy…. [edit] Failure challenges a brave man and let him grow to be competent. Failure is, indeed, a good starting point of someone who had tripped over desertion. its not a measurement of brains,, its about GOD leading you to where u should be!! Thanks Kuya, you always know what to say… I feel much better now.[edit] February 04, 2006
ULTRAELECTROMAGNETICJAM
8:45 PM We had our recollection and Yes it is one of the most unforgettable moment in your junior yr. Tears were overflowing within the last part of the sessions. Even my guy classmates cant help it. As for me,, as usual cry to death. Even if I cannot relate with it as long as its SAD I cry. We had a lot of crying sessions and many realizations. I wont tell you what they were il just SHOW it instead! I bought the ERASERHEADS compilation cd sang by various artists. Here is my review: (this is totally an opinionated review so pls dont go swearing against my name, if u do not agree with me) SOUNDS GREAT Spoliarium - Imago, LOVE IT! JUST FINE NOT THAT GREAT **if PAROKYA NI EDGAR were to sing TINDAHAN NI ALING NENA.. what do u think?? hmmm.. wow.. !!! ayos! There should be another volume cd coz other great songs like MINSAN, FRUITCAKE, KALIWETE, MASELANG BAHAGHARI, HARANA, JULIE TEARJERKY…and my fave TOYANG werent included. Ultraelectromagneticjam is not so much a tribute as it is a reminder of just how good the Eraserheads were; none of the tracks here come close to supplanting the originals, just as none of the current crop of bands come close to the level set by the Eheads all those years ago. Even if the Eraserheads has been long gone, I still consider them the best Filipino alternative band ever. I still consider WITH A SMILE as best written OPM song. Ely’s geeky vocalwork is the most heavenly thing I ever heard (well second to JAY..) from a Pinoy artist, I love you ELY BUENDIA! February 02, 2006
js prom
6:54 PM Hi peepz! Im in an internet cafe again... :( nah! its just that i dont have enough time to open the pc at home coz im too busy, hirit nga lang ito now... Anyways! New Layout... yey! its so pambata but honestly, i like it... I crave for pink so much kasi... Oi, I have something to tell you... I have my Prom gown already!!! its so cute... Ill be posting a picture of it soon.. And dont ask nah the color coz im pretty sure you knew it nah... lol Our prom is feb 18 at Xavier Estates... Its so nice there... And Im so excited...To all Juniors and Seniors get ready for a night full of enchanting chuva! lol.... Ciao! |
her secret world
i don't know if anyone would ever stumble in this site. well, its me crizzy and im the only one who knew this blog. scratch that. 'coz this time i think i had enough courage to share to others my thoughts & ramblings. if you happen to bump in this site. well, whatever! all about moi
To Dream is my number one Hobby. Dreams help me stay strong. Loving is my key to having a better life. Love is sometimes Complicated, but I still manage to make it through. Learning to trust people is my number one goal right now. Learning to pick and decide well is what im working on. My life is currently on the ride. Im loving everything. I want to be happy, thats all. :)plugboard
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